Can it really be that I’ve experienced 53 Christmases?
Magical Christmases of my childhood, filled with anticipation and Santa Claus and toys. Conspiratorial Christmases of my older boyhood, wherein, having been initiated into the truth about Santa, I now assisted my parents in the clandestine placement of gifts under the tree. Teenage Christmases, tinged with both family warmth and family struggles. So many Christmases.
As I write, I’m wrestling with a nasty chest cold and am not in the frame of mind to write a lengthy, well-worded post. So I thought I’d share something with you from the past.
The following is something I wrote two years ago on Christmas Eve, 2007, in my MySpace blog. Many things have changed since then. Significantly, my beautiful best friend, Lisa, has entered my life, and I am no longer alone. But the essence of what I had to share back then hasn’t changed, not for me and very likely not for you, my reader. Without wasting more words, then, I give you…
Christmas Eve. As an older single male, age fifty-one and counting, I’m spending it alone.
I would like to say that in reality, I am not alone—and really, that is the case. My Lord is with me. Jesus.
But when it comes to polishing off a large bowl of chili (heated to a well-seasoned glow by a sub-lethal dose of Dave’s Insanity Sauce), followed by a generous helping of spaghetti, all designed to take the edge off a bottle of 9 percent ABV old ale and another bottle of 11.5 percent Trappist ale…well, the work has been strictly mine. No one sits with me in my humble, though comfortable, apartment to make supper and the partaking of craft brew a shared effort. I am by myself—as are many who will read these words.
Yet, as I have said, He is here. Here in these modest digs of a solitary, middle-aged male. And because He is here with me, I trust He is also there with you, wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be. Some of you are grieving the loss of a loved one. Others are simply experiencing, like me, another “single” Christmas Eve by yourself. You have friends, and if you’re fortunate, you have family, and you’re thankful. But there’s still something missing, isn’t there?
It’s all right. He is here with you and me. Emmanuel, “God with us.” And in a strange way, those of us who feel sorrow, or loneliness, or a poignant emptiness in this Season of Light, may be closest of all to the heart and soul of what Christmas is truly about.
For you see, that little baby who was born into the lowliest of circumstances two thousand years ago didn’t come for the sake of inspiring cozy traditions, or warm exchanges of gifts by the fireside, or happy family meals. No. Those things are wonderful, and I wouldn’t detract from them for anything. But their absence in the lives of so many of us lies closer to the reason Jesus was born. He came not because this world is so wonderful, but because it was, and is, so broken. He came for those of us who long for a place called “home.” He came for the lonely, for the disenfranchised, for less-than-perfect you and me who know firsthand the meaning of loss, and tears, and struggle; who long for something more in life. He came to give us that “something more.” He came because he knows how deeply we long—and need—to be truly, safely, securely, and lastingly loved.
I write with all the freedom that a couple bottles of high-potency ale can inspire, tempered by my editorial instincts and guided by my heart, which is consumed with Him. But who is He? In this day of well-publicized “new discoveries” of the same tired old heresies that have sought for centuries to recreate a more convenient Jesus, the marketplace of ideas abounds with options.
I just Googled the name “Jesus,” and on the first page of search results I find the following:
* three full-color graphic images of Jesus
* a Wikipedia article
* a “Christmas Jesus Dress Up”
* a YouTube clip of Jesus singing “I Will Survive”
* an online Catholic encyclopedia article on Jesus
* a BBC news article that begins, “A statue of the infant Jesus on display near Miami in Florida is being fitted with a Global Positioning System device after the original figurine was stolen.”
Clever, all very clever. But when you’re alone on Christmas Eve, cleverness doesn’t really cut it, does it? For so many of us who are by ourselves tonight, the one thing we long to know is that we’re really not alone. The older we get, the more that matters.
So perhaps, after we’ve wearied our clever minds exploring all the alternatives, the Jesus of the Bible really is what we’re looking for after all—because of all the gods available in today’s spiritual shopping mall, He is the only one who has come looking for us in a way that is consistent with someone who cares not about religion, but about us. To be born in our midst and commit a lifetime to experiencing everything about the human condition, from inglorious start to brutal finish, certainly smacks of a genuine and very personal investment.
Christmas is God’s way of acknowledging what all of us instinctively know (though we try so hard to argue otherwise): that this world is fractured, splintered. That we are lonely. That we are lost. That we long for something more.
Christmas is God’s way of saying, “My loved ones have lost me, and I have lost them. And that is unacceptable to me.”
This Christmas…you are not alone. I am not alone.
Jesus came for us.
If you’ve screwed up your relationships, Jesus came for you.
If you’ve been sexually abused, Jesus came to clothe you with dignity and hope.
If you’re lonely, He came to give you a place at the family table.
If you’ve been betrayed or abandoned, He came to hold you gently with arms that will not be removed.
If you’re_______, He came to fill in the blank with something better than emptiness.
This Christmas…we are deeply loved.
So to you, my friends, however you may believe and whatever your circumstances may be…
May He fill this time with the reality, the glory, and the comfort of Himself…
Have a blessed Christmas.
Storm
